I’m scared of being forgotten. I’m scared that after I’m gone, I won’t be remembered fondly by anyone or even at all. Something on my bucket list is to have something that stays here even after I’m gone. I want to write a book. Something that can be bought in stores as a New York Times bestseller or something that is found in a dusty old quarter bin from a library sale.
I’m scared of the unknown. I think many other people do as well, that’s why we have so social and cultural problems in society today. That aspect of the unknown isn’t what frightens me. My fear is more self-centered, I am afraid of what the unknown has in store for me. Most people my age don’t fret about this issue, they are still riding the high that they are invincible and nothing bad can happen to them. This is false, tomorrow is not guaranteed to any of us, young or old. It’s just something we have to accept.
I try to say “Thank you” when I wake up in the morning because I am lucky to be given another day on this Earth to make my life mean something.
What are you afraid of? Is it similar to my two fears? Is it different? If you’re willing to share, please do so. Thanks for reading.
An Offbeat Bluestocking 
I definitely feel you. Fear of being forgotten is something I think many people fear. I fear more about not mattering in the long run. I know people around me care for me but, I think they might get the impression if I died, that I could have done more, but didn’t.
The unknown is always a fear I have. Not jumping in seems so much better than, taking a risk. Because you can fail. Not failing is safe. And I know it hurts me when I don’t take chances. Because now I’m paying for it. It’s never late, which is good.
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I agree with you, taking the safe route is always easier than taking a chance. What if it backfires? What if it hurts you? Here’s a scarier thought, what if it doesn’t? What if you take a chance and find out it’s everything you wanted and more? I’m always used to saying ‘no’ to things and thus being disappointed in myself for not giving myself a chance to live. Taking risks is a part of life, and you’re right, it’s never too late. You can change that whenever you want.
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Here here! Or hear hear….oh man I don’t know! But I hope you know what I mean. If it ever works out, I would be intimidated for the future, and even overwhelmed, but if anything I won’t want is to return back to what I am currently am.
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I believe it is ‘here, here’ like “here is the point!” Hah, at least that’s what I think. Take it a day at a time, my friend. Looking at the big picture can be overwhelming (I know from experience) but if you go little by little it’s not so bad š
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Indeed, indeed. I don’t know if that is a thing :P. But yes…little by little. I am noticing that the blogging I’m doing during the Blogging and Writing 101 courses are starting to pay off too. This is a lot of fun! Shame I stumbled on this now! Hehehe, but never to late to do something better. I came from Blogger and didn’t put in too much into it. This will be different.
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Good for you! Keep at it.
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I read the narrative about the secret and the hope. And now I’ve read this testimony on not wanting to be forgotten. I have to say I share your desire to leave something behind in a book. That’s what I want to do, too. A small book of poetry in hard covers (so it will be easier to touch and pull out of the pile in the dusty part of the bookstore). I get afraid about what’s coming next for me, but I think the problem is that I have no idea what that is. Does anyone? Among humans, I don’t think so. That lack of knowing kind of sucks, but I finally have to give it up and move along. Thanks again for sharing insight and wisdom! (About the writing of the secret. Folk often forget that despair has details. The details you crafted here are compelling. Well done, if I may say!)
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Ah, narrative is a good word to call it, I wasn’t sure what to label it as; it was just writing and halfway through, it wrote itself! Thank you for your thoughts on your own fears, I agree with you on no one really knows what’s coming to them in the future, good or bad. Lack of knowing does indeed suck! But we move on and things are alright again. Thank you for your input and for reading.
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I believe in taking chances . One never knows. Great post .
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I wholeheartedly agree with you and I want this too…
“I want to write a book. Something that can be bought in stores as a New York Times bestseller or something that is found in a dusty old quarter bin from a library sale.”
Nobody wants to be forgotten…
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