Virtual Coffee Date

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If we were having tea right now, I’d apologize for unloading all my emotional baggage on you before I even start. That’s the kind of person I am, sometimes I feel over apologetic, even when asking for help. I’m also overly thankful when someone holds the door open for me or does even something that’s considered polite in the lightest sense. I always feel like someone is doing me a favor.

If we were having tea right now, I would tell you with a smile that I was accepted to the school of my dreams, right on the beach, chosen to pursue a Master’s degree in Counseling. I would ask you your advice on what to do, what to pack and go on about how I’m going to pay for housing. I would also say how beautiful it is where the campus is and how I’ve had so many signs that I should go to that campus but reality and doubt blocks me. I would ask you what I should do.

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If we were having tea right now, I would tell you I’m frustrated with the lack of acknowledgement from my family. I would want you to see my side on how I deserve just a small pat on the back for being accepted into graduate school and not the dismissal I receive from my own kin. I would tell you how I’ve always felt like the black sheep and then apologize for getting teary eyed because even though I shouldn’t care what other’s think, even though I don’t need anyone else’s reassurances other than my own, being ostracized by my family still hurts.

If we were having tea right now, I would tell you how excited I am to start a new chapter in my life. Even if it means being on my own, I would be sure I’m ready for a change.

If we were having tea right now, we would talk about our hopes and dreams for the upcoming year.

If we were having tea right now, we would grieve over the Paris attacks and the innocent souls that had left this earth too soon.

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If we were having tea right now, I would thank you for listening to me vent.

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Day 11 of Writing 101…how therapeutic. I had so many emotions I wanted to let out and this assignment was just the perfect vessel to do that. This was an update as well as a therapy for me, writing down my thoughts really does help. As I did so my fingers were typing so fast and hard, taking my anger out on the poor keyboard (sorry laptop).

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About ClarissaG

I write what I'm passionate about. I believe in the therapeutic process of writing because it keeps me sane and motivated. This blog is made up of poems, narratives and other musings.
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6 Responses to Virtual Coffee Date

  1. clcouch123 says:

    You wrote before about the process of applying into the program and the school, and now you’ve been accepted. Way to go! Great news! We need good counselors. Those who know the importance of venting in good ways–over tea, for instance–will be readier to receive the venting of others. And seeing the truth through that. And helping those who vent to see and seek the truth within themselves. These days, my siblings care about what I do and more so care about me. My parents were not so supportive. They had a tendency to tell me what they wished I’d done after I’d made my choices. Or say nothing at all. But Congratulations to you! And thanks!

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    • ClarissaG says:

      Thank you for your kind words and response. What you say is true, I do vent in order to try and seek the truth within myself, regardless if it’s to a friend or a keyboard. I’m glad your siblings support you, it’s a good thing to hear today. Thank you again for your reply. 🙂

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  2. ranu802 says:

    I’m also a tea drinker. I truly understand your feelings, I’ve also helped my family any way I could, but never was appreciated. Now I no longer feel sad because if I do no one cares. Dear friend, you are very lucky to get into graduate school, enjoy it. Some day You will meet someone who will wipe off your tears. I sincerely pray for that day to show up for you, you deserve it! 🙂

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  3. I like how you wrote that. Congrats on being accepted! I hope your family comes around. I don’t have that problem but can understand what it feels like not to be acknowledged by your family for certain things, I often feel unappreciated or like everyone else’s needs/concerns come before mine. So on that level I understand.

    Either way, you have obviously accomplished a lot! You will figure out the housing and other things. Congratulations on this new exciting chapter of your life!

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    • ClarissaG says:

      Thanks so much 🙂 The way you described it, feeling like other’s needs/concerns come before my own, is exactly how I feel. Again, thank you for your kind words and for reading.

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