I don’t know why I keep making promises I can’t keep.
I did it on this blog about when I would update again and I failed to keep it up. I’ve similar promises in the past. When I don’t keep a promise, I feel like a liar. Maybe other people feel like this too.
Where does this need to guarantee something come from? Why do I feel like I have to promise you something and then not follow up on it? Even though I realize “Oops I haven’t update in weeks” I still don’t try to fix that by updating as soon as I can. I just let it go longer and longer and then it gets to the point where I feel it doesn’t matter what I do anymore. It turns into a form of procrastination that festers into a depression of “No one cares what I write about anyway.”
I’ve learned that by talking to myself (not in a creepy way but in a therapeutic way) helps turn my negative words into encouragement. I care what I write about, that should be enough, right? Writing for myself is what got me to start this blog in the first place because it has proved time and again that it has been like a therapy for me. I know it doesn’t just affect me, that’s why so many people write in the first place.
During my hiatus, I’ve been finishing up my first semester of graduate school.
I neglected the blog during these last few weeks but I hope to put in more work into writing more during the month I have off before starting another class in the summer. I won’t make any promises but it will still be a goal.
We’re not promised tomorrow or even what will happen in a few hours.
So instead of promising something, I’ll just see you when I see you with a new blog post.
Thanks for reading ❤